Karen, a retired therapist, led us in an amazing spiritual practice last Monday at our POOT: Phasing Out of Trauma meeting last Monday. I would like to share it with you. If this is triggering, then please stop. Or try it with a safe counselor, mentor, or friend.
Get comfortable in your chair. Close your eyes. Breathe in and out deeply. Breathe in the love of God. Breathe out any distractions. Sink into the chair as if you are sinking into God’s love.
Choose a trauma from your trauma timeline. Pick an event that caused much pain for you.
Imagine you are in a theater, sitting in the front row. The play is about this trauma event you chose.
See and name all the characters is this scene as they were when this happened. Include yourself as a “little girl” or “the younger woman.” Whatever the age you were when this happened.
Let the scene unfold. What happened? Who said what? Who did what?
Name how the “younger you” is feeling. Get in touch with the anger, shame, hurt, fear, rejection, or whatever you felt then.
Allow any tears to flow.
When the scene is finished, imagine you or “Your big-girl-self” getting up and going on the stage. Holding your younger girl’s hand, do what you wish you could have done. Say what you wish you would have said. Kicking, screaming, hitting, swearing, whatever you need to get it out. Hold nothing back.
Return to your seat with your little girl. Jesus sits in the middle of you both. If you are comfortable, allow him to put his arms around you. Soak in his love.
Take your power back that you once gave to these/this person/event. You are in charge now. You are safe. You are strong. You have a voice. You are good enough. And most of all, you are truly loved.
Re-write the play. What do you wish had happened? What you wish those people had said or done? Write a happy or different ending.
Express gratitude for the gifts you received. How was God there for you during this painful event? What did you learn from this? How have you grown? Who supported you?
Leave the theater when the play is over. Don’t try to stay. Or go back to theater tomorrow. That performance is no longer playing.
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